Hi Cas-- it looks like you are about to embark on this journey too (if I'm reading your meter right). Thanks for your support.
((((((And hi too Marvini))))))))! You put your picture up! Holy cow are you beautiful. Your picture reminds me of Ann Margaret. Nice to see you :) And also nice to see you are still here going strong. The drink sounds really appealing. I'll give it a try today.
Thank you too Jules. Your words will help me stay grounded today. I'm not feeling very strong, but I still know how to move my mouth into the nope word.
And breather, I made it through the night. I didn't sleep very well and had t get up in the night. I read posts mainly and fretted about the time clicking away..... but was finally able to get back to sleep.
(((((( Kaiser and Bob))))))) You both know that I only came back for some cookies and a ride, right? What a cool reward that would be. Thank you both for showing up along with the others.
Status today is: feeling very bad! Withdrawals are hard and heavy. I woke up feeling like someone replaced my brain with green beans and cotton candy. I have to lead groups today and really hope they don't mind watching me drool on my shirt for two hours straight. Then pantomime the sponge bob theme song.... then spontaneously burst into tears as my fabo encore. uuhhhhhh. So I'm walking through the nicotine tar and sledge that is fondly remembered as day 2. It feels so horrible. Don't ever go back, don't ever go back, don't ever go back. It's painful and wretched. If anything good comes out of this relapse, I hope it serves as an ugly reminder to those of you who are on the fence right now, wondering if just one could hurt. Lemme tell you, it hurts a lot in every possible sense.
Have to get ready for something right now..... oh yeah. work. can someone mapquest to me where the heck I'm supposed to go??? Or pick me up by motorcycle and make sure I make it there? And feed me a cookie cause i forgot where the kitchen is too..... help!?
And my commitment for today: I will not smoke no matter how lost I get, how drooly, or how stupid I sound. Nor will I smoke if I break my pickles, or someone breaks my heart. I won't even smoke if I screw up the sponge bob song. Nope. Just gonna get through this.
deb
My Milage:My Quit Date: 7/21/2009
Smoke-Free Days: 1
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 24
Amount Saved: $9.60
Life Gained:Days: 0
Hrs: 3
Mins: 37
Seconds: 25