I can't believe you're almost at a year Mr. Q. That is amazing.... and I've missed you too! I will never give up on this. Ever. It's too important.
Hi Cas! You are getting closer. Are you feeling ready and did you pick up all of the little supplies you need? Thanks for supporting me. It really is incredible.
And Kaiser, this is how I'm doing: I'm at the beginning of day 4 (even though my meter reads day 3). Yesterday was incredibly rough. It felt a bit like labor. Cravings were coming fast, hard and steady. I was triggered by everything. Thank goodness I've actually given birth because I used the breathing techniques to get through the horrible withdrawals. And I had to keep telling myself that no matter how bad I felt, how weak, how messed up, I would just breathe my way through it. It was exhausting. I really have an appreciation for what we all have done here. Quitting smoking is a lot of work! This time around though, I feel like I know myself better which helps a lot. I know what works to keep me going, I know how to handle all of the ups and downs feelings-wise, and I know what tools work for me too. I feel more confident about the process because I know this part will pass-- the trick is just to get through it. And for me, the support I find here is crucial.
When I woke up this morning, the cravings were horrible again, and I remember that for me, day 4 is the worst. So I need to steady myself with a letter to you all, and prepare for the battle again today. It's a different day so far in that it's my first day off in the quit. Any little curve ball like that makes me feel extra cautious. I'm planning on doing some kind of reward today but haven't decided what yet.... It's hump day in hell week and time for a little reward I think.
So those are my thoughts as I start my day. I may be on a lot today :)
Thanks again everyone for checking on me. It means so much (which I know that you know!).
love to you all
deborah
My Milage:My Quit Date: 7/21/2009
Smoke-Free Days: 3
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 72
Amount Saved: $28.80
Life Gained:Days: 0
Hrs: 8
Mins: 44
Seconds: 35