Hi Davit, I do not blame you for not wanting to remember you're attacks, its like childbirth so painful the mind has to forget, but at least with childbirth you get something good I dont know what good you get from panic, I wish I could think of a reason that I have to go through this, maybe to make me a stronger better person I just dont know? My nurse said I was a "wreck" last time I saw her, kind of like when you're therapist called you a "mess" I remember when she said that I got so upset, but she explained what she meant and that kind of helped. I wish I could take the antidepressants Davit, but the ONLY think worse than the panic 5 years ago was the side effects, the constant dizziness, I was vomiting every day, I tore my throat up and tummy and vomited blood! and I was having a urinary tract infection every other week, I could not even keep crackers down! I now wonder whether it really was the antidepressant or it was the fear of them and the panic symptoms, but I am scared to try, I am so sick now Davit I dont want to feel worse, if that is even possible. I take the Klonopin which helps a little, I read antidepressants only work for 75% of the population, the others cant take the side effects or they just dont work, which is sad I know. I just have to believe I can get better or at least it will lessen so I can function.
Yes Davit I hope it continues without the attacks, I guess I am trying to "fear them less" I heard if you are not afraid of them they will go away, lets hope that will help, you give me hope Davit, you have been through so much and survived, I think you are a brave strong man and thank you for helping me and writing me and wanting me to get better, I am so grateful, I guess I am just tired from the depression, do you think when the panic lessens the depression and anxiety will lessen too? I hope so.