Well my insurance is very limited, they approved a social worker 6 months ago, she was nice but I in my heart believed she did not understand what I was going through, she kind of "left me hanging" she never called back after a few sessions and that really affected and hurt me Allison, she had called me a "challenge" and said "perhaps there was a pay-off for my behaviour" I really did not like that Allison, this is a very painful serious disorder that has caused me alot of pain and suffering and she should not of said that and not calling me back hurt, it made me feel like I was "so servere" I could not be helped that really left a bad taste in my mouth, she should of called me back and explained she could not help me instead of ignoring my two calls to her, that really set me back, so you can see how wary I am, even my husband said that was cruel to do and say to someone who was suffering and reached out for help, I hope this phycologist can help, I need someone I know, I have been praying to GOd to lead me to the right person and to please give me the courage and strength to fight this, you are right this is not going to be quick or easy, I keep thinking one day I will just wake and be fine, that is probably not going to happen, this has been going on far too long Allison and I am so ready to rid myself of it, if not completly just to function and be somewhat of the person I once was. Sometimes I just cry and cry because of how small my world has become and what this disorder has done to me and to an extent my family, panic, fear and anxiety often lead to depression I know especially when it gets bad, I am hoping with the right Doctor and God I can recover. God bless, Debbie.
