That is a very good point Allison about being there for my son, I have still of course cared for him fed him loved him etc...but I am not 100% like I should be and it causes me so much guilt and remorse, he seems to be alright with it he is a little older now but still I want to get well and be like before, when I feel good I always try to "make it up to him" I constantly tell him I love and adore him and my anxiety and depression have nothing to do with him and I will love him forever, he is my motivation for going on. Orlando is pretty {expensive through} I am glad you had such a good time, you probably will not think I am so lucky in a few days this hurricane is coming, I am hoping and praying it will weaken but it seems like it wants to make a beeline right to us, my son loves hurricanes he studies them it fasinates him, he wants to be a weatherman. Writing to you tonight has calmed my racing thoughts, thank you, I am glad you are not on meds they have side effects and are hard to come off, you had mentioned you had a feeling where I was in my anxiety right now, were you ever as bad as me?? it seems hard to believe anyone can be as anxious as me, I will try facing my fears. God bless, Debbie.
