Hey Debbie,
Hang in there, remember the panic will not hurt you. I know it feels terrible, but you can get through this. I agree also, I would definately get another doctor. If the paxil helps you there is no reason you should not have it. It is your right to get the best medical care available and if that means switching doctors,then I would consider it.
I took paxil for a couple years and it did help, I didn't have any panic attacks while on it and was more calm. I didn't feel as much, but when you're going through this, sometimes it's a lifesaver until you can work through all your fears and get back on the right track.
I can so identify with the "nervous breakdown" worry, because these last few weeks I keep wondering if I'm having one myself. I still haven't took the Zoloft yet, I keep looking at it, but because of my extreme anxiety, i freak out at the thought of taking it. I've actually thought of going in inpatient to get on meds and get my mind straight.
You have to do what you feel is best for you. You have to take care of yourself before you can take care of anyone else. Anxiety and panic take a lot out of you physically and emotionally, it leaves you feeling drained, depressed and anxious.
I feel your pain, because as I told you earlier, I am going through a lot of the same emotions and fears that you, I know that my internal dialogue is just so far out of whack, thinking all the "what ifs" and all the fears that come from it.
Have you tried any therapy. I've been three times, and am going to try to keep going, it's hard, but at this point what are my options? I want to get better and try to have a normal life, like we all do.
I hope you can get the paxil, just insist and stand your ground. Try to relax, I know everyone talks about the deep breathing, but it really does work, just try to go somewhere by yourself each day, several times if you can and try to destress yourself.
I hope you are feeling better. Let me know how things are going.
Becky
