Dear apple2003,
How did you feel while you were shopping and then, how did you feel 'after' you accomplished the task? I have experienced depression along with panic attacks. Now, I deal with the depression on my own (no meds, just recognized the problems and deal with them, after at least four years of wonderful therapy, of course) - I have worked at it, and can totally deal with it - however, the panic attacks are a bit harder to deal with, I think. How does your husband feel about your panic/depression? Is he understanding or bewildered?
Has he ever diminished your station in life, so to speak because of your fears, etc.?
Stay in touch...