I called my nurse's office who prescribes my medicine, I told her secretary everything, the panic, depression, crying, afraid I am going to die....I hope she calls back, I have a feeling she will not because I have not been there in 2 months, being afraid to leave the house alot, I am desperate, I need help badly, I cannot live one more day like this, shaking for 3 hours, then crying my eyes out all along thinking this pain in my head for 10 days is a tumor or blood clot, I wish I could just know its stress, I feel like someone has stold my life, I was in tears with the secretary, I just so want someone to tell me its going to be alright that I am not going to die and recover from this nightmare, I also called a psychoptheraist I think he is called, no call yet, I feel so alone like I am doing this on my own. I bumped the Paxil from 10 to 15 I hope that may help, I hope she calls soon, she has been very very good to me in the past, I hope God will help me too, 8 months of this has really wore me to a frazzle, sometimes I am amazed I wake up. Thanks for listening everyone. Hope everyone is doing well. Debbie.
