i hope some of you know what i mean here,its ike this i can ever concentrate..i cant do daily tasks in life..my health fears are day in day out..i have phobias,and habits for good luck.i think i have a ocd to but just a lil..the depression sucks to,because how can you be happy..really how can you possibly be happy when you are living life in a box,like i am..i feel like im on a bad acid trip..a bad dream,i wish this would just go away..i want my gurl,and my kids to know daddy as a strong man..not that im always wea,because im still a strong man,but i have these feelings deep inside and i cant control them..this is 5 years now,im like my buddy Gina the fear of meds,but they make me freak out worse,and when your living a busy daily life,can you afford a week or 2 to freak..right now i cant,and is meds the anwser..my symptoms are just bogus,str8 up,its like one wave after another,like i never get a break screw anxiety lasts 30 minutes mine is 5 years and going strong..where is all the research,and help for this..most doctors dont know jack about this throw you a script let you pick your own med,and they making bank off us..im living a terrible life im so young,and i suffer to much..i want to get wel,i cant belive how this disorder has me day in day out,it confines me to the couch somedays..sorry for the rant but these symptoms are getting old if i feel a ache or pain im like ohh nooo..where do you go from here,when you feel weird all the time i feel so off i can even write out my symptoms..i going to think them all out and post them tomorrow..sorry to write so long..
outlaw
this to shall pass
