Wow good post Outlaw

"The bottom line is we have to take control and desire to work at making the change. When you make that commitment the panic and anxiety get worse for a while because you are trying to change negative thinking, and it is much easier not to change. Change is scary and uncomfortable." I am 49 now and I am scared since I was 6 or 7. The regular panic attacks started at the age of 26 and I became more and more agoraphobic since the age of 33. After a very long period of stress, extreme stress sometimes, I have come to some conclusions. I felt so trapped and many times blamed others for it. My husband, my father. And all those that do not understand how scary panic attacks can be. Should I go on like this and blame others for my condition because I am afraid to change? Or should I finally face my fears? Only I can do it, nobody else can do it for me. Changing is scary and uncomfortable. I think you are absolutely right, CrystalD.

ive had it 5 years..i have not gone mental but i belive the earler you cure the better you will get alot faster to..after ahwile your nerves are just senstized from the anxiety you feel everything,and it feels so real..than you start to worry ohhh nooo..also your mind is prigrammed into anxiety..i dread every minute i used to love life nw i just i live it..we need to reprogram our minds easier said than done..i could go on forever but i hate when it nonstop pins and needles man its painfull almost.. outlaw hang in there people

hi everone hope u all are doing as good as u can be. i was going to write my whole sob story but i came across outlaws posts and i was like Oh my Gosh, i feel the exact same way. im new to the whole anxiety and panic. had it for some months now. there are no words to explain how i or we feel. it is so hard to deal with this "disease" everyday. its like draining ur life out of you. how can someone live in constant worry everday? i noticed people here have had panic/anxiety for years and years. how do u do it? i think i seriously would go mental. well im almost already there...lol. have to joke sometime. i have become such a hypochondriac it is unbeliveable. i am so scared of everything. scared to face everyday. for the fact of that constant worry of wondering, am i gonaa freak out today? or am i gonna have these terrible symptoms again? god i wish it would just go away! i wish there was some miracle cure for it to just vanish. i pray everday for it to go away and it is still there. well guys im sorry for such a long post. i guess i have been feeloing really downa and just needed to vent. well i hope everyone has a good night. and i hope one day this would all leave us...

im going through my old posts my anxiety has lasted like 2 days non stop..it sucks this is terrible it wont stop 30 minutes my butt..im trying to hang in there but i cant..thanks guys.. outlaw

outlaw,i am so happy i found this site and your friendship. lots of hugs gina

hey Gina i couldnt get on tonight i will hopefully chat with you soon,i like taling to,you are a good friend..where is heather gina? Crystald i almost cried after the stuff you read and i dont cry for ****,im like nails,i use to be this lil street thug tough as nails..now im fragile like a childs mind..but i dont cry much this hit me here what you wrote.. every **** day is full of anxiety and fear, but you know I been living with it for so long now it scares me more when I am able to do things like a "normal" person. i love it,thank you for the inspiration and the sharing of your story..BIG HUGS HOMEGURL... gina i miss talking to ya chat soon.. outlaw p.s yall hang tough...thanks

Scared in dixie, Welcome to The Panic Center. We thank you for sharing your story with us today. This support group is full of supportive individuals who may be able to help you answer some questions regarding panic and anxiety. If you look to the left of the screen under "TOOLS" you will find many supportive tests. These tests are not diagnostic tools and are not a replacement or substitute for a physicians advice. The purpose of these tests is to prepare you with information that you can present to your physician. When youre finished the test, you can either print your Final Report or email it directly to your doctor. This will be help assess the situation. We also have developed a Panic Program. This program is 12-weeks and involves the tools mentioned above. Each session is based on the previous session, so we strongly advise that you work slowly through the program and not jump ahead. I see you have related to outlaw, we are here to share our experiences and help one another. If you have any questions or concerns with our "TOOLS" you can contact our support department at support@paniccenter.net. Take care and we hope to hear from you soon. Josie ______________________________ The Panic Center Support Team.

Hi Outlaw, I am asking you over for a cup of coffee and you and I are going to talk a little. Let me tell you about me, I am a 48 year old woman, agrophobic (4years housebound), Panic, Anxiety, PTSD, depression and a choking phobia. My man left me 2 months ago, just came in from work packed his stuff and left, said I didnt know how to have fun. I could not eat without him in the house, I cant drive, was terrified of being alone. Now I truely was alone. Forward the tape to now. The past 2 months taught me that I have the strength to recover and I am here to tell you its **** hard. I learned to eat alone, even 1 piece of cereal at a time and sometimes it took 2 hours to eat a bowl of cereal. I can walk around the block alone, I can drive a little now too (with someone in the car, have not graduated yet) I can go into a store to buy food (not alone yet) and I go out a little with friends. My heart is shattered, my mind is fearful but I have to figure out daily how to live. And do it all with anxiety and panic as my constant pals. I am teaching myself to think differently about my symptoms, fears and problems. It doesnt come easy, just like a broken bone it takes time to heal an oversensitized mind from years and years of doubts, fears, terror, symptoms and negative thoughts. My strongest source of support has been "Hope and Help For Your Nerves" by Claire Weekes, every **** day is full of anxiety and fear, but you know I been living with it for so long now it scares me more when I am able to do things like a "normal" person. Currently I think you are exhausted in your mind, body and soul fighting everyday to maintain some sort of "normal" life. You are also beating yourself up for not being a "strong man". Well you ARE a strong man, how else could you live with this EVERYDAY? Worrying about symptoms and being afraid of our own thoughts and feelings is what is wrong with all of us having anxiety and panic. We fear our own thoughts! Its as simple and as hard as that. Like meditation, the simplest form of meditation, following your breath, concentrating on just following your breath and keeping your mind from wandering, is the simplest and the hardest thing to do. We have trained ourselves over the years to be afraid of our own thought

hey ouylaw, i like the thing about the movie ground hog day!its funny but its so.....TRUE!i have to work to today again.i think you were right about work.i am tired and dont want to go but you do what you gotta do .i will be onlint tonight about8:00pm flordia time. gina