Der Crystal, What a sweet post. I felt your concern. I did not want to bother you I know you are having your own issues and I did not want to unload any more worry or pain on you. You are right, I am exhausted, I feel when I went to the Nurse GYN it was incomplete, she did NOT do a pap or ultrasound, just an internal and out the door, then when I called her about the pain and bleeding she could not even take 5 minutes to call me back, I was so scared of ovarian cancer or ectopic pregnancy {at least one is ruled out, I still worry about the ovarian because even through the bleeding has tapered very much my lower tummy still burn and hurts} if she just would of called to advise and reassure me, that is why I hate Doctors, I don't mind paying their high rates if they would just help me. I am trying to calm and control myself, I walked with my son tonight, he keeps asking "are you better" "will it come back tomm" it breaks my heart and angers me that my sweet little boy is being hurt, you are right about the panic wheel, I feel like my finger was in the dam and once removed all these horrible feelings and symptoms came pouring out, nights are a little better than days for me, why I do not know? I so much want to recover, if not be "normal" at least better and to function, I still fear there is something wrong with my lower stomach, probably stemming from the fact my care was questionable, I just hope I am alright. How are you doing? Are you feeling any better? I was very very concerned about you, in my panic state I felt I would not be much help, and I did NOT want to make it worse, I so much want you to feel better. I am eating and trying to get bettter, I know you and others are praying for me. I want to put my brain on "off" for awhile. Thanks Crystal you are a friend, Debbie
