i love how you said you know how you feel daily,you want to keep wasting days of your life...its about to get nice out,and you need to get on with your life gina,i hope you take this as a panic friend advice and go..help is the key,your not alone,and you will get better..your a strong person,and you can get through this,youve been doing good by yourself you have no support in your life,just be tough,and make it..go gina,and if you dont its still all good,but i hope you do...