Oh I know where you are coming from..I have been where you are on more than one occasion.
It is so darned difficult to fight the demon, and the way your mind bargains is mind boggling, isn't it?
If you have a few minutes, read some of my past posts or almost anyone else's and its almost like looking in the mirror. I found strength knowing that I wasn't the only one on the verge of craziness!
But I will tell you this from experience....Each and every time you fight and win, you become just a little bit stronger, a little more prepared for the next time. You build your armory and your walls of defense get thicker. It really does get easier, please hang in there, dig you heels in and REFUSE to give in! We CAN and WILL do this!
Theresa
My Milage:
My Quit Date: 6/9/2008 Smoke-Free Days: 30 Cigarettes Not Smoked: 510 Amount Saved: $102.00 Life Gained: Days: 3 Hrs: 15 Mins: 1 Seconds: 35
You are in cintrol and you can do this! Your body and mind are testing you. Get in there and fight back. Read to the boys, bake, give them a bath and take a long one yourself after the are in bed.
I was in such a great mood and without cravings and now its all I'm thinking about. Playing those head games and getting my keys, then putting them back, then getting my keys, bargaining, etc etc. I'm sure you all have heard the head games from nic. Why now? why when I'm so close to one week. I've got a headache, I was going to have a glass of wine and that was nixed because that is what did the crave. I've ALWAYS associated one single relaxing glass of wine with my cigs. now I feel I cant ever have it again. Then nic decides to say, "hey you made it a week, you can handle one cig" . What the heck is up with that. I'm a wreck, I'm trying whateve rI can but nothing is working right now (other than my two boys cant be left home alone cause they are too yougn and they dont feel like going anywhere). Ugh I hate life right now.
Kasi
My Milage:
My Quit Date: 7/3/2008 Smoke-Free Days: 6 Cigarettes Not Smoked: 120 Amount Saved: $25.50 Life Gained: Days: 0 Hrs: 14 Mins: 50 Seconds: 11
