It IS head games and yes you are bargaining with the addiction, but wait, hang in there. It does suck, I know, I've been there. I ask of you, please, will you not throw in the towel? It really does get so much easier, give it some time, let those emotions settle. Tell those junkie thoughts to take a hike. You're stronger than you give yourself credit. I mean, you've already got what, 6 days now? That's great. They don't call the first week hell week for nothing. That's exactly what it feels like, but it gets easier....I promise. C'mon, chin up. You can do this.