Oh, dear Lady! [i]I feel you're pain[/i] [sorry, bad Clinton impression]. I, too, have had smoking thoughts. Wouldn't you know, now that I'm out of the closet w/my quit. I didn't talk about it much at first (except here), afraid I'd go back to smoking and the embarrassment of admitting to friends and family that I'd failed would just destroy me. And that feeling is only stronger now. If I went back at this point it would pretty much relieve me of every ounce of self-respect not to mention permanently staining everything I've said and done to convince people of the awesome advantages of The Quit.
Listen, I don't know if this would work for you but this is what I do when I get the odd smoking memory: I say to myself, "Self, remember that time when the after-taste of the cigarette was so bad you wondered why you even smoked it? Remember when you were so embarassed because you just knew you smelled bad and everyone around you knew it, too? Remember when you dug a half-smoked butt out of the planter and proceeded to smoke the nasty thing? Remember when the pediatrician, who examined your kid for the umpteenth time for ear infections, finally said just NOT smoking in the house was not enough; the smoke gets into your hair & clothes and giving your child a hug was making her sick?!
Well, I'll stop now. I think I've talked myself out of smoking today. I better get back to work.
Cold Turkeys have good memories.
mc
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]8/31/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 741
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 9,633
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1,926.60
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 74 [B]Hrs:[/B] 3 [B]Mins:[/B] 39 [B]Seconds:[/B] 38