Hey No. I'm right here 197 days worth! I just got really sick of whineing about not smoking. I'm tired of it. I'm sure everyone else was tired of it too.
Here's what's happened. I wanted a cigarette so bad, I thought my head was going to come off. Someone offered me one and just thinking that I would get some relief from the constant craving, I lit it and took a puff. It was really, really vile. My heart started racing only this time it didn't feel at all normal. I got used to my regular steady heart rate. I started coughing. I gave it back and said "How can you DO this?" It was just about the worst thing I ever did (or maybe the best). I started spitting out the taste. I ran back to the quit and for the first time realized that I ran back because it made me feel better. The quit is my haven, my safe place from cigarette smoke. It's the place where I can relax, enjoy my nice slow steady heart rate. I am, for good, a non-smoker. It happened while I wasn't even looking. I wasn't even expecting to be a non-smoker. That was a week ago, and I've never felt better about being quit.
Unfortunately the cravings are still there. I now know that these are psychological cravings, not physical cravings. I obviously don't crave cigarettes because they make me feel ill. I crave the memory of what cigarettes used to feel like. Now that I know what these feelings are, they are easier to deal with. I have not stopped the gum completely but did cut down a whole lot. I can see the day that I'll stop that, something I could not see before when I was considering going up from 2mg to 4mg, taking a step backwards.
Then too, there was the issue of not being able to find out how to log in on the new site. I went back to the old engine to log in.
It's looking a little brighter now.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]1/27/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 194
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 5,820
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1,940.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 25 [B]Hrs:[/B] 13 [B]Mins:[/B] 23 [B]Seconds:[/B] 30