You guys are so awesome!!
I feel so humbled by everyone here :gasp:
I mean even though feeling so vulnerable causes misery, at least it is humbling, I think. Maybe that's the good part of anxiety ;)
Realizing that there is such a fine line between confidence and weakness. Realizing that we may all have the power within us to be that positive, confident person at any given time, just as easily as it is to become that helpless, tormented person, that seems to choose US, rather than us choosing them. It's as if it's a THIRD PERSON, THAT WE loathe, yet pity, and want so desperately to rid ourselves of. How envious we are of those who don't think twice about hopping on a freeway in heavy traffic and driving for hours. I doubt I will ever be that person. But maybe it's enough for ME, as long as I can do the things I need to do...and that is to get myself to and from work, to the store, appts, etc.
And you're right dCheryl, it does indeed set the tone for the entire day....it can't help but influence it.
Whereas yesterday, I let the day beat me up..today, I think I can, at least, raise my fists.
So I will take your suggestions (shannon too) about the driving over the weekend. My only worry is that it's supposed to be rainy and that is sort of freaking me out a bit. I've always been much more cautious in rain, and so I don't know if I am setting myself up for failure...or if I should endeavor to just ignore the rain? Maybe I am looking for a way out? :confuse:
