Hi Blu3,
I've been dealing with the same food issue since about september last year. Not sure if you remember me or not, but I was posting a lot in a few of your threads about eating. Anyway, I've continued to get better and lighten up about food. I'm still not 'there' yet but I'm making a steady progress. Just about everyone with an anxiety disorder makes a slow recovery. Stick at it, does take time, but it's well worth it. My fear is choking, or vomiting and choking. Anyway the way I'm overcoming the food issue is with a strict routine. Really can't say enough good things about a routine with panic! Plan you meals through out the day, know what you're going to eat. Think about something you could use as a 'safe food' anything you feel would be easiest to eat. Then if you're ever having a bad day with eating, you can at least call on the safe food. Maybe fruit or soup something like that. Mine are soup and oats. Also if you have a blender wack everything in there. That way, if you've been under eating you can at least drink some food and get it in that way.
I have strict eating times during the day. I made a rule that if I miss the time to eat, I had to wait until the next time. I did this because unplanned exposure work just doesn't work very well. The discipline really worked for me, for some reason it was calming, gave me a sense of control. Which I think really appeals to us panic sufferers! Different things work for different people so this approach might not be for you. It's worked for me so far. There was a time when I simply would not eat after dark. Now I can, in small amounts. But yeh, I couldn't do that last year!
Take care and all the best :)
