For all of you, I wanted to share some of the information I've collected over the years of having PD. I have had a rough time and I am finally coming out of it. I never thought it could resurface and manifest differently, but it did and I forgot the hell it was.
For starters, I HATE it when a by-standard says 'don't think about being nervous'. HELLO! That's not the problem.
What the general public is unaware of, is that Panic Disorder is PHYSCIAL!! It is a chemical imbalance in the brain and it misfires and triggers your adrenaline gland the wrong way- scientists don't know why(heck, if I did, I'd be a millionare!)
The problem is, is that panic disorder is PHYSIOLOGICAL you get a panic attack which is physical, but you have pshychologcial fears then associated with them= such as you have a panic attack in a store and leave- leaving relieves the attack- thus, now you are pshycologically scared of going in that store, because you equate the attack with the store.
The problem is, people don't realize we get this for NO reason.
So, if you have person in your family or someone who isn't understanding of this, ask them what their worst fear is - losing a loved one..something that would make their jaw and gut fall to the ground and make them sweat like niagra falls. Then, tell them to remove the reason and this is your life EVERY MINUTE of the day!!! That reaction with no cause.
This really helped many ppl in my life understand what I went through - I was so bad, I couldn't take a shower and had to bathe in five minutes, because the bathroom was too small.....people don't realize that even daily living is affected when you are at your worst and when people tell me it must be nice to be on disability, I say 'I'd give anything not to have this irrational fear. " sad thing is, I don't know what life is like without it. I've had this as long as I can remember.
But, NEVER give up and when you are at your worst, RESEARCH!! LEARN!! Half of fighting something is knowledge.
