Foa,
Good for you! Sounds like you have taken some HUGE baby steps! I was going to suggest some teeny ones (like, when I walk dog, I say "I will go up to that red car then turn back, etc) but Greyhound buses??? Glad to hear it. I, like Maria, always have my ativan in my purse. I got 20 pills when I went to the emergency about 3 months ago and so far have taken a total of one. 1/4 before a couple of doctor appointments, etc.... I don't like taking anything, but I LOVE the fact that those lil babies are always available. If I am anything like I was 10 years ago when I went through this, they may just turn to powder. If they are helping you get out right now though? Do what you need.
Again, Congrats on the progress.
Bonnie