So it's wednesday and I've worked about 36 hours already, with long days still to go. This is the kind of week where I'd be smoking my head off. I don't feel like smoking my head off, but those comparitively tiny little cravings are getting really intense because I haven't had time to breathe right, haven't had time to sleep right, haven't had time to eat right, haven't had time to shop for conditioner and I'm out of everything, and ack ack ack!!! I'm just having a spastic week and I can't use cigarettes to relax at the end of these terribly long days.
I'm so appreciative that I don't smell bad and I'm so happy that I'm not spending my money on cigarettes and I'm so glad I can breathe, but I'm craving, craving because my hassle-stress level, my can-I-really-do-this-job stress level, my god-I-need-a-nap stress level -- they're all through the roof!
I smelled a room full of smokers today. not a cigarette lit but the smell of their stale smoke was almost unbearable. How can I be wanting a cigarette? I hate cigarettes with passion!
But I need something here, and a break doesn't look like it's coming.
this is so HARD. I need a different job.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/3/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 54
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,098
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $116.1
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 3 [B]Hrs:[/B] 15 [B]Mins:[/B] 5 [B]Seconds:[/B] 40
