Sunflower, I was just reading your post and I hope you will see this cause I am kinda late....but, i just wanted to say, I so remember my 100 day...I just didnt feel like argueing with myself anymore...I just wanted to go back to being normal and relaxing with a cig like I had done for 34 years....It was an everyday battle to not buy a pack...
But it occured to me that it really wasnt what i wanted...It was what I needed...the addict in me was trying to lure me back...The addiction was calling...I posted a cry for help and someone told me not to concentrate on what I was missing by not smoking but try and concentrate on what I was gaining by not smoking....I was gaining life and that is what i wanted...I wanted my life with my kids and my beautiful little grandson....I didnt want them to see me hooked up to a breathing machine, I didnt want them to have to say "Mom why didnt you quit smoking!"
And then I realized that the cravings I thought I was having were really just strong thoughts and memories of smoking...not really hard core cravings like in the early days of my quit.....
Here I am 500 days later and loving my smoke free life.....I still think of cigs every single day...but it is no longer a fight to not smoke...It is just a wonderful Awesome feeling of being able to push the thought aside and remind myself that I no longer smoke...Its great!!!!!
Hang in there, you will be so glad you did...If we keep this up, we will be able to enjoy our grandkids for years and years and years to come.
Stay Strong Sunflower....It gets better and better and so much easier and easier...WE CAN AND WILL WIN!
Brenna
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/2/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 499
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 9,992
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $2245.5
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 58 [B]Hrs:[/B] 7 [B]Mins:[/B] 26 [B]Seconds:[/B] 4
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$33,943.00
Amount Saved
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Days: 648
Hours: 7
Minutes: 43
Seconds: 25
Life Gained
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5222
Smoke Free Days
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67,886
Cigarettes Not Smoked