Carina
Sunflower
Ultimately you will do what you will, however , first please listen to/read this.
This crave, wanting has been with me for days. I have agreed with myself not to smoke. I need at all moments when the urge is great to reach into myself, find my strength, courage and force myself to take the higher road.
I want a whole lot from this quit, I want a whole lot from not smoking and I am sure that you have the same. Now is the time to really examine what you want from your quit.
Do you want: to smell better, be able to be close to your children and grand children, be proud as you were when you were complemented by your son, live a longer more healthy life, be able to breath without wheezing, be able to walk the block, race to the as is area of Bed Bath and Beyond because you know there is something great there. Why do you want to live a life of freedom from the addiction of smoking? What is your purpose?
If you can tell me this. Write this and type this into a reply here. You will have found some of the help you need. You will have found your courage and your resolve to continue the fight to be smoke free.
This journey into the reasons for my quit seem to be the only pillars that I can stand in right now.
I wish you well my thoughts and hopes are with you. Please be very gentle with yourself. Know how fragile and vulnerable you are right now.
Be well
Peace
Phillip
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/17/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 116
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 2,339
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $870
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 19 [B]Hrs:[/B] 1 [B]Mins:[/B] 33 [B]Seconds:[/B] 19