Thanks for being here again Tiana. Not much makes sense to me right now. I had a great day yesterday, and really tried to use that positive energy in to today, but I have been useless at work. I'm tired, sore, even my vision seems affected (weak). I read through all of the first session, but really not much of it stuck/or struck a cord because I wasn't REALLY reading it, just grasping for an answer, a start, something positive to give me strength.
I do know that this could still be my quit. For the most part I think the quit is going well, craves are bad when I spend any amount of time with smokers but outside of that I really don't find myself struggling much with it - though I don't know myself as a ex-smoker, and am sure that contributes to the lost feeling. The idea of dealing with smoking and depression at once seems too much, in the beginning, I tried to peg it all on the quit, now I want to peg it all on the depression.
I wrote in another area here tonight, about work - decision making is another great one for someone experiencing depression, and I really can't seem to decide if I can push through this, or if I legitimately need time off.
I think posting is my energy effective way of coping right now, so thank you again for listening.
