By the sounds of it, it seems as if you are strong willed, and determined to get back to your old self. I believe that you can do it! I am glad to hear that you have completed the first activity schedule. How did you find it? How are you feeling? Do you have any questions so far?
We are here to help and support you, in whatever you need.
54 y/o male who was once a competent upbeat educated go-getter. I've been off work (CPA) for 2+ years (but am going back to work in 10 days). I've forced my self to go back to work b/c I feel deep guilt for not accomplishing anything. No motivation, extreme fatigue and dark foreboding thoughts about a hopeless future have clouded me. Am on SSRI, and just spent 6 weeks in the local hospital mental heath ward after a severe depressive session in late February.
I've started the 16 week program here (just printed my first Activity Schedule). I like the systematic approach here, and I am desperate to get out of this funk. I am strong willed, and have made up my mind that living this way is intolerable. I have made up my mind to get back to be the kind of person I was earlier in my life: effervescent, upbeat, leader. Although consistent with symptoms described here, harbour serious doubts about my ability to perform competently in the future (like I've "lost it" for good). I have "been up" before, and I want it back. I'm missing lots of life and am wasting my one time trip on this earth.