Hi Apple,
I am sorry to read what you are experiencing. It sounds like you could really use some support right now. I think talking to human resources about your options is important. You may also want look into resources in your area that can help you. Jay offers some great questions and thoughts.
I am glad you are under the care of a doctors for medication. What other treatments are being offered to you? If you are not doing any form of therapy I would strongly encourage you to do so. Research tells us the CBT is effective at treating depression. This program is based on CBT so I also encourage you to get started on this program when you are able to. Be sure to take notes and complete the homework. If you feel you need extra help I urge you to seek out a therapist. Medication can be helpful but treatment is essential for fighting depression.
We are here if you have any questions or just to vent. You are not in this alone.
How are you feeling today?
Ashley, Health Educator