Where would I be able to get the balm? Is it sold in specialty stores. I am going to try the hot pack tonight. Thanks. To be honest I don't know if writing just distracts the symptoms but it is a great way to cope while going thru an attack. I started writing and became so into it that I forgot to worry about my heart rate or my disillusionment. There were still some lingering feelings and thoughts when I finished but I was able to do some breathing and move on. I have found that lately I am not anticipating the next attack so much. Distraction or not being on this site and writing helps. Thanks