Being on this board only recapped what I knew. Panic happens to smart people. Everyone on here is educated and seems to pretty much have their lives together, except for panic. If this disease is mostly in our heads then why can't we just talk it out of our heads. Most people say I should get used to panic and learn to live with it. I was told panic disorder is like diabeties and you live with it for the rest of your life. Yeah but here is the trick. All diabetics take insulin, some take N some take R some take both. They take it allways at the same time, they don't eat sugar and they monitor their intake of carbs and protein.Ok, I CAN live with that. They don't have to try this type of pill or that, they know they have a condition and they know when and how it works.
But no, not panic disorder. With panic we have to learn how to not let the panic work. We have to make mental changes. There is no science, there is no rational treatment or explanation. I was once told by a shrink that panic only happened to smart people. He said that if I was stupid and ignorant when I felt my heart pounding I would get a drink and go on with my life not wondering why that happened. So if we're all sooo smart why can't we just tell our brains :stop! this doesn't make any sense! I don't like this feeling and I know there is nothing at the mall to be affraid of!
Sorry to ramble on but I am so mad at myself for not being able to win this battle. I am the problem solver in my family, I always win or if I don't I always have a rational explanation of why I didn't win. However, I haven't been able to even win a battle against this disorder let aone to win the war.
