Hello all,
I am new on this website. I will introduce myself briefly. I have been fighting with PD and ago for 15 years.
Fot the fist years, the trouble was manageable with avoidance stragtegies (I guess you know what I am talking about) and around 10 years ago, the probelm went out of control. It was a stressful perios of my life as I travelled a lot for my job and moved to the capital of my country. At that time, I could only go out taking benzodiazepine or alcohol. The rest of the time, I would stay at home. I found useful help. I took a SRRI, which helped, and started a CBT. The CBT was very helpful. It took around one year I think but I could do anything I wanted. Take plane, make sport, go to cinema and restaurant. The most difficult to overcome was driving on highway. It took more time but I finaly could overcome this as well. For many years, I drove and even did not think about PA!
Unfortunatly, one year ago, I expercience a new PA. I was driving on the higway in France and a PA occured. I forgot how terrible it is and I stopped on the side of the road because I really thought I was losing control. Since that time, PA have come back and are more and more frequent on the highway. I have started again avoidance strategies and in particular "micro" or "subtle" avoidances like staying on the right side, looking for exits and emergency lines, ..
Despite I continue driving, it is getting worse, probablly because of these strategies.
So, I have decided to restart from scratch and make progressive exposure therapy. I will go at my own pace and it should work ultimaly as it worked in the past.
However, I was wondering how to manage my driving to go to work. I have to take highway to get to my work for just 10 minutes. Some days, it is OK (usualy in the morning) and on other day it is not OK (I am quite afraid to experience PA). I must admit that it is rare that I experience real PA. It's more about the fear to experience one.
Would you recommand that I continue to go to my work through highway or should I try to find alternative roads?
On the one hand, avoiding highways sounds like a massive avoidance. On the other hand, I am afraid to make things worse as I see that the problem is not getting better despite I continue driving (but I limit driving).
What I am trying to do for a few says, it to get rid of the mico avoidances. I already noticed minor improvement.
Thanks for your adive and nice to meet you :)
Cedolya