Thank you all so much,as this has sure hit me hard,and i know what i need,and have to do,but getting through it is another thing too,this morning,for the first time in many years,i went back to bed after i had my coffee,i prayed a while and fell back to sleep,work up again,and i feel so numb inside,then i started feeling clamy,and thought,i know these feelings i am having,and i am going to overcome them right now!
So,,,in saying that,i did take a xanax to help,and took a long warm shower,and went for a long walk...if i am going to turn this over to God to handle,then i have to let go and let him do it!
I can not change the situation,no matter what the out come,i have to let go and let life happen and trust that all things will work out for the better,no matter what..
Bren