Thank you everyone for all you're replies I am overwhelmed with gratitude with all you're concern and advice. thank you.
I am not in a good way today, I stayed in bed most of the day, depression is sometimes as worse as panic, I feel so stupid so used and violated by my therapist after all this money and time he would do this too me, if he could not help me he should of just said so instead of giving me false hope, he cannot even hide his contempt and dislike of me anymore, it is over with us.
I finally got up and ate a sandwitch and tried to take the dogs for a walk about an hour ago, I experienced the worst chest pains I ever had while walking and this has never ever happened? in fact when I walk I feel good usually, I sat down on someones tree lawn and a man came out too help me, I was sweating and having chest pains he wanted to call the paramedics but I said no, my dogs were trying too attack him he almost got bit, I somehow got home, it had to be ANGINA I guess, that is chest pains on exertion, my husband got mad at me and said "you had no business walking with your're anxiety tonight" but exercise helps me, I was so afraid my dogs were going to bite this nice caring man who tried to help me tonight, I dont want to get sued or have anyone hurt, maybe I should of gone too the hospital, but its subsided now, perhaps in my state today I should not have tried to walk, the dogs were pulling horribly and it was hot, I hope I did not have a small heart attack the chest pain lasted about ten minutes, its better now, that never happened, I do not want to be afraid to walk.
somehow someway I have to come out of this hell I have been living in for a year, I dont want it too cause a heart attack, I know stress can and that pain tonight was very scary and new, I have to walk through, maybe just one dog at a time. I fell into a hole due to my therapist and have to get out. I am going to try to lay down now, the chest discomfort is scaring me, maybe I was just to emotionally upset to walk tonight. Thank you for all you're prayers and help I so need them.