Hi Sunny, I was hoping you would be online. I just had a very anxious episode almost a panic but was able to control it, it was hard but I managed, your replies always are helpful, thank you. I know why I almost had an attack, as you were correct it started about my health, I went to bed last night with a slight sore throat and headache, I tried not to dwell on it and talked to myself about a good night sleep helping, after I saw my son off to school, I laid back down and an hour later I woke up shivering with fever! I had to grab a warm blanket and wrap myself, my house was NOT cold about 79 degrees, I was really scared I was alone and sick, I started having all these what if thoughts like a horrible infection or virus or some other awful thing, I am never cold and that scared me, the fever seems to be over now but I was very shaky all day thinking I am getting sick and have to handle it alone. I am so glad I did not have a full blown attack yet, I hope the symptoms do not return nothing is more terrrifying to me than being sick and being alone. I am glad I managed to calm down somewhat for now.
I do have to make some appt's you are correct, I am hoping to get stronger and more coping skills and calm, last time I went to the doctor the nurse was upset I was so shaky and nervous, they do not like to put up with that I know, I need so many tests and I am just trying to get emotionally healthy enough to go. I might of just caught a small bug that worked itself through me so I am trying not to worry. This is how my meltdown happened last time, I had a series of bad health problems {broncitis, cyst bursting, blood clot} and I totally fell apart, I guess my main fear is getting really physcially sick and mentally breaking down again, I am praying that will not be the case. You are right CBT is starting to work for me I hope it continues, like it did for you and the others, I am hoping to be alright, my hubby hates when I run to medical doctors he says it does not help me and seems to make me worse, I think he means anotherwords thinking its physcial when its anxiety. I am trying to just make it day by day. And I hope to recover like all the wonderful ppeople on this site. I am so grateful for all the members replies, it helps me. Thank you.