I can really hear how frustating it is to no longer enjoy something that you used to.
Before you were able to look at a hockey game as fun and it sounds like at this point you are unable to do that. I also hear you now look at this game as a threat. What is it threatening?
Also, how can you look at this situation that will be a bit more positive but still a realistic perspective for you. Maybe a challenge? A exposure session? What would work for you?
Hi: Could you try and concentrate only on your husband and friends at the game? It can be dizzying to see big crowds coming and going. Just try to remember, one thing at a time. Concentrate on the entrance, the tickets, the seats, the view in front of you. Do you have something to do if you get anxious? I knew someone who had a small rubber ball in her purse, she'd squeeze it for awhile when things got bad for her. Another takes a water bottle everywhere she goes. Does chewing gum relieve tension for you? Just a bunch of ideas. Good luck, and hope you have a wonderful time.
So I'm going to a hockey game tonight with some friends and my husband. However, when I look at this "hockey game" I don't see a "game", I see a threat. I have to be there with thousands of other people, and I'll be stuck in a row and ugh. I used to find these events fun, I used to LOVE hockey games but now it's just stressful. I wish I could just think of this as fun instead of a threat! I would love to be able to go to events like this again and actually have fun, see it as fun and enjoy myself instead of stressing.
