Its good to hear that every thing went well and you had a nice chat with your Dr. It really does make a difference when they take the time to listen. I am happy that you are happy and feeling better. Thanks for the update.
Thanks Davit and Red: It means a lot to know you were thinking of me. Everything went quite well. Had anxiety before leaving home but once there, was just fine. I know it is anticipatory anxiety. Did the relaxation before leaving and I just kept thinking about everyone here and actually "felt" your support and thought happy outcome thoughts. I had had a 48-hr. Holter Monitor test about three wks. ago - this is a portable ecg for your heart you wear for two days - and all is well. yippee. I think the dr. was just concerned because of the high BP I went through and wanted to rule out everything. I had brought my home readings which were good and the glucose readings too which were normal. We had a very good chat about everything - no rushing - and dr. decided to up my SSRI to 10 from the half 5 and will call me in two wks. to see how I am doing. I do feel I am getting better and she said I was definitely getting there.
In answer to your question about how the program has helped me overcome my negative core beliefs. The first thing is all of the support and incite that I have received for the members of the group and the educators here on the site. The second thing is reading and working the program. In challenging my anxious and negative thoughts I was able to start to recognize my negative core beliefs. The different aspects of the program just seem to play on each other. When you put this all together you get a better understanding of your self and can begun to work on your specific problems. This has been and will be a ongoing learning process for me. I am finding who I am and making adjustments where necessary. This process and progress is moving me in a very positive direction. I am getting more comfortable with myself and the world around me.
I have an app. today and already am feeling tense. This is because it is the BP app. I'm beginning to feel very negatively about these because of how sick I was with BP problems and it is frightening. My BP readings at home have been pretty good, so why do I worry so much about it? Trying to keep positive re: happy thoughts, happy outcome. I went to bed thinking about it - slept very well though - and thought about it first thing this a.m. so I know it's causing some stress. I will do a relaxation exercise before leaving the house and will think only happy thoughts. And yes, I will think of all of you cheering me on so I know I am not alone today. Thanks!
My Dr. returned my call today. I got to talk to the Dr. herself on the phone about my meds and we have worked out a care plan for me. She was really very nice on the phone. I really think we can work together now and that I can trust her. I have gotten rid of one negative core belief about Doctors. Now on to my second new Dr. next Monday.
