Well as for the deadline issue, I spent all wekend with my mom and have managed to finish the bigger part of my work. Tuesday I need to get to the lab and finish up some work but besides that my first draft is done! Woohoo! Yay! Woot!
I feel worried though that my boss will be displeased with my work especially since I turned it in late... But hey, I did my best and most of it is done now. It was a tough paper to write but I am happy with it, I still hope my boss likes it lol.
(why is it I am always so anxious when turning in stuff even though I worked so hard?)
As for my husband, well, I am not sure what to think. I came home and BAM! I saw that he had cleaned the house! I was aware that he had cleaned a bit, he had told me as much on the phone when we spoke, but I had no idea how much he had done. So it seems that although he did play while I was gone, he did take time to do a lot of homework during those two days I was not home. The bedroom is perfect. Even the bed is made. He vaccumed in there and dusted! The bathroom is spotless. The chrome is shining and the floor has been mopped! The office is all clean and the guest bed sheets have been washed! the vaccum is done, well everywhere in the house. The carpet feels fluffy lol. On top of it, the kitchen is clean. There are a few dishes in the sink, and a few clean dishes to put away but the kitchen is very nice and the floor has been mopped. Finally I can see he has started tackling the mess we had in the dining room and living room! The floors are all mopped or vaccumed in those two rooms. There is still a few things to put away and paperwork to go through but it is still a very nice improvement! Plus he says we will finish up the rest later this week!
Oh and he actually going back to his new class! He had started last week but I was afraid to hope. But he is going back next week and has said he likes his teacher. He seems to be commited to going back to school this time. so here is to hoping it goes well for him. He is starting with just one class.But I know if it goes well it will motivate him to try more.
So as you can see this has been a rollercoaster ride for me. I was shocked to see how much work he did while I was gone. Ok, so right now he is sitting at his computer playing but I figure he deserves a break lol. Funny but right now, the video game playing does not bother me one bit!
When I came home I thanked him, a lot, for the great housework he did. I also made sure to unpack my overnight bags immediately and to put all my things away. Upkeeping what he had done was the least I could do! I am very impressed. I am still a bit afraid that this is just a phase to placate my anger, but I am beginning to feel a bit hopeful that he really does want to make an effort to keep me and to work with me. I am trying to be open minded and accepting of all this. I do love him and right now I am beginning to feel hopeful again. I really feel like I am on a rollercoaster!
Oh and he also accepted to go to councelling with me. Wow quite the week!
(So, weird huh how from one day to the next my situation just fluctuates so much. For an anxious person with adaptation issues this has been quite the week. Right now I feel so high strung I can't seem to stop fidgeting and talking loud. And that does not help my headache lol.So I will go. sorry for the novel. It has just been quite an eventful 3-4 days! Again, the running commentary, not cut and pasted lol)
Have a good night all! I will go nurse my head and my pride.
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so he really should take his own advice at times . I know people change over the years , that stands to reason . But when someone is doing all the taking its just not fair . 
that was a very polite word cos its not what was in my head ! I couldnt get him to marriage counselling , do you think yours would ? 
