Hi Diva, I am in the low side again myself. And as sad as it may sound I found relief in your entry. I don't want you to be sad... but why is there a comfort when I know someone else is too???? That's nuts!!! But anyways, I guess that's how it works?? My room is such a mess too... and there's this thing in me that thinks that maybe if I clean my room my emotions will get clean too. That sort of excites me, just by thinking about it, but I still haven't cleaned! I am feeling better then yesterday, but yesterday, I decided I should take my dog for a walk. I really didn't want to but from not expecting anything, it was really nice seeing the sunset and the pretty trees in my neighborhood. I only went out for like 5 minutes (my dog is old) but I was really glad that I did. I sometimes just step outside and sit on the steps and look at the sky. Nature really helps when I am blue. And I give myself small credit for at least stepping out, even if it's 1 min.
I went to the eye doctor with my mom yesterday, since I thought I felt fine. This was an appointment for her and I thought I can help her out by just going with her. But on the way there, I felt nauseous again and I got really disappointed in myself. I can't even give her something back! I thought. So, I waited in the car until she finished and on the way back home, the chair in back of me kept rolling, so every time my mom put on her brakes, the chair would crash into my chair and hit my head. This made me really furious, because I felt like when something bad happens, it just keeps happening! Now I think about it, it's kind of funny, but I sooo didn't want to laugh then! And of course my mom is starting to have glaucoma. I don't want to be a burden to her anymore... and I hope I can be of some kind of help for her. Anyways, thats my story.
I hope today is better for you, Diva. I want you to know that you've really helped me out a lot!!
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