Lorlee,
Thank you so much for your words of wisdom and understanding and kindness. I am estremely touched by what you said And I think I will do that one the day of her funeral. Thank you for helping me with this, you have no idea how much you post helped me today. I truely appreciate your kindness :) Thank you <3
-Diva
Dear Diva,
I was wondering if the person who asked you not to attend understands what you go through? Perhaps they knew how difficult it would be for you. I would really give this some thought and try not to assume the worst in this situation. We all know that in a time of grieving people do not always stop to think about what they say. We get wrapped in our own pain and can easily forget what others might be feeling.
Diva you know from our chats some of what I believe in so I don't think you should feel bad that you are somewhat relieved you do not have to go. I think your Grandma would understand. Maybe on the day of the funeral you could choose to remember your Grandma in a way she would appreciate. Play her favourite music, do something you know she used to enjoy, or write her a letter about how you feel.
Celebrate the woman you knew and loved.
Try to be gentle with yourself and take care.
Well, it looks like I am not going to the funeral. I was asked not to go. I am not too sure how I feel about it. I understand that without me having to travel 8 hours away everything is just simpler for all. At the same time I am afraid I will regret not going later on. Then I feel guilty cause part of me felt releived I did not have to travel such a long scary road. Made me feel selfish... Bleh, I got to go, work awaits but I just felt I needed to try and figure out how I feel in a place where I felt safe. Thanks.
-Diva
Dear Diva,
Our deepest condolences. You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers during this difficult time.
Casey
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