Just a question, did you have your first panic attack or a panic attack while doing a recreational drug? I had two friends, when we were in high school, that had panic attacks after smoking marijuana and were then afraid of drugs ever since then. Just curious if something like that triggered the first attack and now you associate panic attacks with all recreational drugs? Just a thought. Another thing, what do you fear about them? That they will harm you, kill you, etc. I used to get really anxious and on the verge of a panic attack when I would watch Intervention on A&E because I would see these people doing drugs and it made me think of death and bad things happening. I just kept watching the show and it eventually went away but I was very anxious at first. Maybe the mentioning of drugs or seeing drugs sends you into an attack because with the drugs you associate loss of control over yourself, loss of morals, etc. and this lack of control scares you? Maybe just tell yourself that other people can do them but you don't have to be scared of them because you aren't going to do them and subject yourself to the harm that they may cause. I hope this helps ;)