I just took my first zoloft tonight. Immediate panic, laying in bed beside my bf, can't sleep, I keep crying constantly. He's tired, so he can't really pay much attention to me. Im freaking out, I just want to be held, I want to be told its ok. So Im left not only with a panic attack while laying beside him, but now Im getting irritated with him. When I know I shouldn't.
I dont know what is wrong with me. He has been working so hard, I can't blame him, but I get soo mad cause Im hurting like this and need him and hes not there. And then in turn I feel so guilty because part of me is upset because hes not there, but part of me is really upset because I shouldn't be upset about this.
I had to leave. I was just getting more and more upset and irritated and was hyperventilating.
It seems to be getting tougher and tougher as the days progress. We have only been together for just over 2 months, and it is good over all. But this anxiety is wrecking havoc.
I can't sleep, so I go lay down beside him. I just want to be with him. Which has been fine. But tonight, ya not so much.
Ilove him to death, and that scares me to say that.
Im just soo messed up right now. I think I am going to go hug him right now. And then I will come back and post how I feel.
I need something, even if he is sleeping....
