Hey Nameless!
I've had panic attacks for about 12 years now. I always believed it was something chemical that I couldn't fight and that I was doomed to just always be a panicky / anxious / depressed person. I went to a psychiatrist once who told me I was "trying to get attention from my husband." I went out to the parking lot and cried and swore I would never see a pschiatrist ever again. And I never have. That was about 10 years ago. Then I went on Paxil for about 7 years and decided it was time to try living without it. In fact, this month is my one year anniversary of that decision. Naturally, the panic / anxiety / depression all came rushing back with a vengeance. I've learned that is because I never dealt with the reason I was having these intense, life robbing emotions. I started to try to find some kind of help without meds and without psychiatrists - I trusted neither. (I no longer not trust psychiatrists though. I still haven't seen one, but now realize one bad apple doesn't make them all bad.) So.... I found this website and started to use the Panic Program (CBT) religiously. I've read in many, many sources that CBT is the best way to beat this.
Although I still have moments of severe anxiety, I haven't had an actual panic attack in probably three months. Maybe a little less, but I think that's about accurate. When I do get the anxiety, I am now able to talk myself through it before it gets out of hand. I'm able to see that anxiety is a normal emotion and that everyone has it. The difference is that we dwell on it and it turns into a panic disorder. I'm realizing that it is very important to accept an anxious moment as an emotion and not a way of life. You are not crazy! You are not losing it! And most importantly, you are not alone! We are here for you. There isn't a single person on this website who doesn't know exactly what you are going through every day.
Use the Panic Program and start getting your life back. It is a free 12 week program and it is so fabulous!! I don't know where I would be right now if I hadn't found it.
Welcome to the website. I'm sorry you have to be here, but I'm glad you found us - I hope we can help you get through!