Hi Jendays. I'm so sorry about what your going through. You are NOT alone. Trust me, this is just anxiety. And i'm suprised i just said that because i have a hard time convincing my self that its 'just anxiety." But really it is. I experience exactly what you do to. YOu are not alone. Everything you just said........is everything i go through too. And yes, it is driving me crazy. I dont' want to be this person too. I miss the old me. I too am soooooo afraid of every change in my body.....i watch and listen and try to feel if anything is different. And i freak out if it is. As i'm typing too, i'm thinking about the way i'm feeling. Its all part of anxiety. Dont worry, we will get through this.

Hi Jendays im sorry you are having a rough time but think back to when you felt better and tell yourself you can be like that again i know that in the moment its hard to believe but you will be ok and if your like the rest of us you have had heaps of tests done to rule out other stuff if the doctors had found something they would of told you.Its all anxiety i get the same way as im sure everyone else here does too.Every week when i see my psychologist he has to convince me im not crazy.Have you tried CBT if not this program offers it for free its pretty much what my psychologist teaches me and it has helped me a lot.Perhaps you should see your doctor and have your meds increased a bit to help you get on top of things again i have had mine increased 3 times now.Just know you are not alone in your battle with this monster.Take care. Lulu..

Hi everyone, It has been a while since I've posted. I really need to vent right now and am willing to take whatever advice I can get, so if you can get through this with me, bless your heart! My anxiety has been mostly under control for the past month or so, with the occasional attacks every now and then that can be helped with diazepam. I also take Lexapro daily, and when I was off of it for a month, I went through HELL. So, I started it up again and things were going great. The other day, I had what the doctors say was an "ocular migraine." I had blind spots everywhere, nausea, headache, the works. I had one back in January but it was late at night so I just layed down and it went away in about an hour. This time, I went to the eye doctor and he put me in a panic, saying I needed to go see a specialist, blah blah blah. I don't have insurance, so I didn't go. I went to my PCP and she said it was an ocular migraine once again. Not to worry. However, ever since then, I'm waiting for it to happen again. I'm making myself sick. I'm always like this...my father tells me every day "SOMETHING IS ALWAYS WRONG WITH YOU!!!" And I know that because I'm always complaining about something. I truly cannot deal with it anymore. It's like, every day I'm so in tuned to my body that I noticed the tiniest flinch or pain or sting and I go crazy over it. I constantly wonder what it was like to not pay attention to the small things, and I know I used to be able to blow things off because anxiety has only been controlling my life for the past year. But I feel like I haven't even been alive. I wake up every day now and I just wait to feel dizzy or a head rush or blurry vision or a pain somewhere. I know it will come and it always does. I get to the point where I break down in tears and pray to God to help me get through this. Even as I sit here now, I am trying not to focus on how I'm feeling. I'm convinced there is some deep-seated problem that no one is figuring out. I'm so afraid that one day I'm going to have a seizure or not be able to breathe or pass out. I just cannot live this way. I'm feeling so suicidal but then I think of how horrible that would be too. I could never leave my family or my friends. I'm only 20 but I feel like I'm dying inside. I'm screaming and t