I read posts here daily,and I miss alot of people who quit posting here a while back,and some that still do.Its a great support system we have here I liked the old format better though,this I never got used to..
On the yopic of anxiety,I wish i could just feel comftorable for a little bit,it comes and goes,but i feel like like a fiend half the day.I'm not comftorable in my own skin,or touching my daughters face,or kissing my lady none of it feels real.Me and my gurl been toghter foever like 4 years engaged I told her until Im better I will not marry you,because i want to be there,not a shell of me..My focus is still on my heart,I cant seem to shake it guys,its really messing me up mentally and money wise.I feel so lazy that I dont do more,but if I do I might overwork my bad heart?Well thats my life still..
Debbi hang in there I pray for you as much as I CAN,i BELIVE YOU WILL HELP OTHERS WITH THIS DISEASE ONE DAY!Maybe that will be your purpose,youve been through it all and you not giving up,your a fighter..I respect that so much..Just keep getting at it please never doubt yourself...
Well im going to head off for now i will post more often as it gets colder here in Chicago,and im still trying to find my own way...Miss you guys...
