Dear Outlaw, I just read your post. You really understand and your words meant alot they were a comfort, thank you. I re-read your prayer you wrote to me a few weeks back, I believe God was working through you that day, that prayer gives me some strength. Thanks for telling me I am strong, I do not feel so strong but I am trying, you are strong too Outlaw, and I have to believe in my heart we will beat this thing! From Feb 2004 to Jan 2005 I was "normal" I functioned good and only had a mini-panic once in awhile, I know it can be done, I just have to remember how I did it or what I did not do, if I could just figure that out perhaps I could get better again, those 11 months were good and I am grateful for them. How are your headaches?? I hope they eased up, I am having some now, pretty intense ones, I think it may be the Paxil or the rainy damp weather, please let me know how you are and thanks again for your encouragement and support. God bless you always, Debbie.