Dear Vickers, Thanks for writing me back. I am taking the medicine I have 2 doses left and I cannot wait for it to be over. It makes me a little drowsy and dizzy but I think thats normal. My period started and of course it terrible and adding to my misery. I woke this morning and the my foot is very painful when I walk on it its swollen and tender, I did not hurt it or bump it, and of course now I think its the antibotic because I read on the net that in rare case the Levaquin or Macrobid can cause "spontanous rupture of foot tendons" I was not even worried about that until my foot started hurting, I am going to try to rest it and see how it is tomm, I do NOT want to call the Doctor back about this, I have been there twice and called once, he said I am healthy other than the infection. I sure do not feel healthy Vickers with all this going on I feel like I am on deaths door, My husband admits I am sick but thinks I blew it out of proportion, the foot thing scares me VIckers I pray to GOd its unrelated to the antibotic, How did you like Macrobid?? how much did you take and for how long and did you have side effects? I hope to hear from you soon. DId you your boys go back to school yet? Mine did and I feel like I am not 100% there for him yet, like I am some old sick frail Mother and it fills me with guilt. God bless you Vickers you have been such a help to me. Debbie.

Hey Debbie! Don't ever feel like a fool or be ashamed of who you are! Yes, we have panic and anxiety and even depression and yes, we sometimes sound completely irrational and even insane. But, that doesn't make us any less valuable or less deserving! Don't ever be ashamed of who you are. I know none of us think you are insane or unreasonable or as you say, a raving lunatic! ;p I know how you feel about your doctor knowing about your panic attacks though. I had to have a follow up with the OB/GYN today to talk about the tests I was freaking out about last month and I kept wanting to ask him this or that but when I said it in my head, it sounded like an irrational fear and couldn't bring myself to ask because I didn't want him to think I was being stupid. I think it's because we have spent so many times in doctor's office with things we thought we were dying from only to have them roll their eyes at us and say it's just stress and anxiety. I think it installs a feeling in our subconscious that our feelings are invalid and we are wasting their time and not being taken seriously. And, naturally, that makes us feel like we need to be ashamed of that part of us because we are treated like our feelings are not valid. But, doctors are used to people with anxiety and they know a lot about it these days and are becoming more sympathetic to our problems so don't think he thinks less of you for being a panicker. I've noticed since working at the doctor's office that probably 70% of the people that come in are diagnosed with either having a panic attack at the time of the appointment or have had some panic / anxiety in their records. It's very common and it's a very natural feeling because sometimes we feel so out of control that we don't know how else to feel. I honestly don't think your doctor thinks any less of you for having a history of panic. I know you feel like it, but I'm certain he doesn't. My doctor told me that my biopsy came back normal and other tests they did were also normal but that the pap smear was not normal. He said it is most likely because of the constant bleeding and abnormal periods for the last couple years. But, he said the birth control should straighten it out and wants to check it again in a year. I did manage to get

Hi Lady, I guess you have read my posts I feel like a fool. I went back to the MD this evening, I told him I felt awful, aching, nacous, sick, etc...My vitals were good. He came out with a computer printout with panic disorder Vickers, I was so stunned, I so wanted to see this DOctor for physical problems, I see a pysc nurse for that, perhaps because he was a man, I tried so hard to hide my anxiety disorder but he saw right through me, he wanted to write me scripts for an anti-D and tranquilizer, I do not know why I am so ashamed of this, I guess I wanted just a regular MD to treat my physical problems, he is a decent good Doctor and I am happy to finally find one, I dont know why this bothers me so. I am taking my antibotic and trying to get rid of this infection, and trying to calm down thinking I have hepatitus or a blood infection. I hope this Doctor will see me again and not think everything I have is related to panic. I was so shocked I actually started my monthly leaving his office!! I like him but I did not want him to know about this, I do not know why?? I just read some of the posts noone is having a good day today and my heart is breaking, so many people are having it hard today and I am praying for us all. I hope you are well VIckers. Write me when you can. GOd bless, Debbie.