dear all,
my trip is getting closer and, of course, im becoming more and more agitated. i even had to take lorazepam today, even though i've decided not to take it anymore.
stupid thing is - i was completely convinced that stomach discomfort, nausea, dizzines and headaches i've been dealing with for the past few days were due to my pms, bad weather, maybe even food poisoning, but the moment i took the pill, all those symptoms went away. scary!
anyway, this is the question mainly for the moderator, but if any of you guys have something to say, ill be delighted to hear it - my question is - im taking this trip because i want to face my fears and convince myself i can make it. BUT, can it be too much for me in this stadium? can it be too strong for me, can it be too big challenge for me, too huge goal for me?? and if it can, whats the worst thing that can happen to me? can i get major panic atack, stronger then ever, and go crazy, get heart attack, lose control?
whats the worst thing that can happen to me, if that turn out to be the case?
i apologize if this is too stupid, but im worrying that all this might be too much for me:((
thanks for every answer,
a.
