All your replies brough tears to my eyes, the fact you all care and our praying for me makes things better. I am trying to take my Paxil, perhaps tomm, as you see with my other post I am afraid to take it with Klonopin. Thank you all again for your advice and caring. God bless you all, Debbie.

Debbie, Im Emily a 22yr old from Australia. I had a terrible time early this year. My panic attacks became a constant part of daily life and I got to the point where i couldnt physically get out of bed from shaking and impeding doom/horrid fear. I got to the stage where I could no longer get to sleep and was reliant on Xanax to cope. I stopped eating, just was not hungry at all and everytime if try to eat id throw up from terrible nerves. Has anyone else experienced this???? I was soooo afraid of what was happening to me and what was going to happen in the future. I respect you so much Debbie for trying. I know how debilitating this disorder is and I know how you feel TRULY I DO! I have started meditation and am reading a book called 'The power of Now" by Eckhart Tolle. It just helps you to put things into perspective... I find when i feel really bad, just emmerse urself into things you love doing.... distraction helps....do things that help you re-identify with the true you! When im really anxious i get this feeling like "Who am I?" I get really scared coz I feel mechanical and not reall or something. Apparently its called dissasociation. Anyway has anyone else had this? Debbie, Please keep me posted, I'm here for you sweetheart...we all know what ur going thru. It will be ok! - Emily xxx

You guys are amazing, thank you so much for your support when I am at my worst. Your words and prayers mean so much, I am trying to tell myself it all will be alright, I am very worried about my sons foot as my husbands ankle, they are so bad! But I will try to pull myself up and take care of them, I love them so much. I am so glad you are better VIckers and the flow has let up that was good news to hear. Again, thank you, you all make the bad days more tolerable and I am so grateful. God bless you all, Debbie.

Hey Debbie How are you feeling i hope you are alright you are strong you have to believe that.You will be ok.Try the deep beathing technique where you breathe in for 3 seconds then out for 3.If nothing else it will take your mind off your other symptoms.Sending hugs and prayers your way. Lou..

u got my prayer too :)

debbie, i agree with vickers. i prayed for you as soon as i read your post.you have to talk your self out of it. try to think about all the positive things in your life its hard but trust me it helps. i pray you feel better. gina

Hey Debbie! I'm sorry you're feeling so terrible lately!! I know it's immensly hard, but try to lay down and relax. What I do is lay down in my bedroom with the lights off and the air conditioner (or a fan) on since it's so hot and keep telling myself "I'm healthy, there's nothing wrong with me, I'll be ok." Over and over and over. I've even tried to trick myself by feeling my heart rate after a little while and tell myself my heart rate is slowing down. Even if it's not, it helps me calm down to tell myself it is. And eventually, by calming down, it does slow down. The more you tell yourself you're going to die, the more you're going to feel like you are. Positive self talk makes all the difference! Lie to yourself if you have to, but keep doing it until it goes away. You can do it!! You will be ok!! You've been through this so many times and have made it. You will make it this time as well. I promise! P.S. I just saw your other message you had posted with Vickers as the Topic Title a couple days ago. Sorry it took me so long to get back. It's a daily struggle to get on the net because of my boys and their friends. -Teenagers- Anyways, just wanted to give you some encouragement about the menstruation problem you asked about. I had a seriously heavy period - really bad!! And it was extremely painful. I usually don't get cramps but this time it was so bad that when I sat down it felt like my female insides would go into a charlie horse. It hurt so bad I couldn't believe it!! I talked to the doctor about it and he said it was normal because apparently I haven't ovulated in years so the uterine lining was thickening, which is why I kept bleeding all the time. My uterus was trying to shed the lining but since I wasn't ovulating, it couldn't. Anyways, the reason it was so bad this time is because the doctor forced my uterus to shed the lining. BUT after a seriously long week of massive, intense pain and extremely heavy bleeding, I am now on day two with no blood at all! Woo Hoo!! So, I just wanted to tell you that there is hope as far as the menstruation monster goes. Thanks for helping me get through it!! I can't thank you enough for your support while I was dealing with that! Remember that if I could get through it, you will

Oh gosh i feel so sorry for you. I have been there too, thankfully have a fantastic understanding mum and sister who helped look after my kids for me. You will get through it, just think positively, i know it is so easy to say, but YOU ARE NOT ALONE, in your thoughts and fears. I will say a prayer for you. Katrina

I am having a relapse and I am so afraid this time I will not get better, every morning I wake up and it feel like there are two "images" over my bed one anxiety and one depression, I have been laying in bed alot just shaking with fear, now I do not want to leave the house, I am avoiding my son so he cannot see what a shaky mess I am, and he needs me so much because of his hurt foot as does my husband with his sprained ankle, what really fills me with fear and that in the past I always seemed to pull it together for my son, no I cannot even mangage that and thats no good! I pleaded with my nurse to put me back on Paxil, I have been off Zoloft 8 days today, I am afraid to take the Paxil with the Klonopin and I am afraid to call my nurse and ask for Zoloft, my husband said "if you call and bug and bother her she will drop you" I feel like I do not know where to turn, I called my therapist, she has not called me back, she mentioned she does not want to take my money because she knows we cannot afford it, but can I afford feeling like this. The chest pain, shaking and fear are intolerable, and it kills me for the first time I cannot pull it together for my little boy, I do not want to continue taking the Klonopin twice a day {once before bedtime always seemed to work till now} it just makes me feel drunk and foggy and I still feel scared, I should of stayed on the Zoloft, even through it made me hyper, please say some prayers for me, this fear of dying is terrible, can all this panic and worry cause an actual heart attack or hear failure? I just want someone to tell me its alright, my appt with my primary is not till August 12th and they treated me so bad I do not even want to go back, I broke down in tears in their office and they still turned me away to walk home. Thanks for listening, I am sorry this is so long, I am going to lay down till the shaking and chest pain subside. God bless, Debbie.