Hi, I've been doing okay for a little while, new meds working, not so anxious, and then last Thursday week we had that awful bomb attack in London. My daughter lives in London, luckily she was home and contactable, but was really freaking out by what was happening around her, crying, panicking, and I couldn't get to her, it was horrible. She calmed down eventually, and we found her boyfriend safe and well. We were very lucky, I appreciate that, and compared to New York was not so horrendous in terms of casualties. Since then tho', I've been through a whole range of emotions and wanted to know if what I've felt, and still feel is 'normal '. On the day I felt panic, helpless ( when I couldn't be with her, she's the sunshine in my life ), relief, worry ( about what might happen next ), irrational hatred for minority groups ( and I'm not a racist in any way ), sadness for the families who did lose loved ones. And now I'm just so tense all the time, its the first thing I think about in the morning when I wake up, full of 'what ifs', rather than just enjoying the fact that she is safe. She visited me this weekend, and she still can't get on the tube, or bus, worried that it might happen again, and hates living in London. Its horrible to see and hear how upset she is. My body now shakes for no reason, my neck is so stiff, my anxiety levels are escalating, all when I was begnning to feel so much better. Don't know what to do to help me 'snap out' of it. Has anybody, particularly you New Yorkers had similar feelings ? I don't want to remind anybody of the pain that they may have suffered, but any advice would be so helpful. Is this 'normal' to feel this way ?
