Thanks Caitlin Im glad you have a wonderful husband that supports you i wish my husband could be like that but hes too absorbed in making him happy.Hes never been physically abusive.He is a compulsive liar we have no trust and he never helps with the kids i feel that hes just bringing me down.Whenever i get the courage to talk to anyone i get super anxious and then i cant bring myself to talk because i have a fear of doing something stupid or weird then they may think im crazy.Maybe i am crazy!!!Now im scared to even go back to my psychologist because i had a panic in his office yesterday and now i feel i cant go back.

As long as you are not in danger (meaning your husband is not physically abusive) I think you should not pressure yourself either way right now - it will only increase your anxiety. I have been reading a lot of posts from women speaking about how their husbands put them down or say hurtful things. I am amazed by your strength - I don't think I would be able to cope at all if I didn't have the complete support of my husband. A few minutes ago I started having an attack and could not breathe. My husband poured me a hot bath and is now rubbing my shoulders to release some of my tension. He is my rock. I am not saying all this to gloat - not at all - I just want you and all the other women who don't have the support of their husbands to know that YOU DESERVE BETTER. You deserve shoulder rubs and hugs and I love you no-matter-what's, and anything else that helps you overcome this disorder. I can see that going it alone with 4 kids could potentially be even more difficult than staying right now. Maybe try thinking of a couple of doable things that will make you feel more in control - like finding a marriage counsellor and talking to your husband about counselling. Tell him how serious this is to you and how much you need him to be there for you, and maybe sell it to him by explaining that counselling will make life so much better for BOTH of you. Another thing that is making me feel more in control is being honest with my friends and family (one by one, gradually) about my panic attacks. I am getting more and more open about them - explaining that they are very common in the population, and are caused by taking on too much, being under too much stress and allowing yourself to worry about to much too often. I have found that not keeping this as a deep dark secret is a huge weight off my shoulders and actually helps alleviate some of the anxiety. So call one or two of your closest friends or family, and ask them to come over for coffee (decaf of course!!). Tell them what you're going thru, start maybe by saying "I have been under so much stress for so long that I just can't do it alone anymore. I really need a friend." Tell them anxiety disorders are not uncommon and you are dealing with it, but that you could really use their companionship. I'm sure the

Hi Ruby my husband works full time and only has 4 days off a month.

Hi lou, Does your husband work or is he unemployed and at home with you? Ruby.....

Hi lou, Does your husband work or is he unemployed and at home with you? Ruby.....

I have stopped seeing all my friends because im scared i'll do something stupid when im near anyone if anyone comes over i pretend we arnt home so they go away cause i cant face them.What has my life come to?Sometimes i wonder if it would be easier to die than to live like this but then i dont want my kids to have no mother but what sort of life am i giving them by being like this. Sorry just have to vent a little.

Is there anyone who can help you? Maybe have a friend or a family member come to help you? Is there somewhere you can go and stay with your children? Remember, you are stronger than you think...hang in there....I will pray for you...

I am so afraid of being alone it consumes most of my days worring about it and it affects the decisions i make regarding my future can anyone help?? I want to leave my husband but im so scared of being alone with my 4 kids so i stay and put up with the way he treats me and i think he knows this.I was preparing to leave him about 6 weeks ago then i was diagnosed with this wretched panic disorder and agoraphobia now im too scared i cant leave the house by myself without having a panic so how can i raise 4 kids by myself. I have no family near me they are all 3 1/2 hours away im so confused i dont know what to do has anyone else been in a situation like this???