Hi FolKs,
Today i go to my counceling session, second one . At 43 I feel like i threw away over half my life. Well I am in knots cause next week I have my first physical since i found out that panic attacks is a condition. I have always get panic attacks going to the Dr's. now I have to face one and tell them I think I may have panic attacks and acrophobia which is leading to depression. For once I have to admitt that I'm not ok, and to an athority figure. I have to admit this may be causing some depression. And then on top of all that I think " what if there is an underlying problem". I doubt it cause I exercise and eat right. Blood pressure is normal most of time cept when i have panic attacks. Last time I had a bad one two weeks ago I checked my blood pressure and it at 170/ 105, pulse was like 75. I have a steady reading of 110/70 and a pulse of 50. I check it like two times a day. Is this normal?
So on top of all these problems I have to wonder what I ask my counsler today. Do I ask if what he thinks I should tell my Dr. This is so hard dealing with all these mental ailments. I'm suppose to be so strong and invincible. I'll just keep saying what I always have, this to shall pass. Don't know if any of this makes sense above but it might help just to put things down in words. I got the tight chest now and the labored breathing. So I need to finish up and do some breathing exercises. I should'nt of drank that half cup of coffee cause I have the shakes now too. Going to take it easy till later. Jimbo
