hi so tired, I'll give you my story that I hope will help you. I first began to take panic attacks at 23 yrs and after 3 years of living with this nightmare I got referred to C.B.T. I can tell you the from doing nothing and hardly leaving the house I got a job again went on holiday to france basically I was living a normal life again, something that I did'nt believe was possible. Although it's back I know I'll get out of it again, I am living proof that you can get over this bad spell. It's all about the thoughts and trying to get out of this vicious circle. Your thoughts are'nt real, they are tricking you into believing that there is something to be frightened of, the are just automatic. HOW WE THINK=HOW WE FEEL. Keep on looking ahead and you'll be a stronger person. take care, Helen

Hi again, I know that it must be frusting to think that your husband doesn't want to understand but maybe it is because he is too terrified to understand. People sometimes tend to ignore what they can't understand or are too scared to know. Just like I can't understand alcoholism, a disease that has affected my family and completely terrifies me. Sweetie, hang in there and allow your husband the time to process things... it may take a while. Unfortunately, feelings and thoughts are two things that are really difficult to teach... otherwise, we would all teach ourselves to stop the anxiety. Your husband married you because he loves you. Please understand that he is not perfect.

Hi sotired, A very special friend of mine just e-mailed me about this website. Someone who is watching out for me even though she is very far way. We all have scary moments even with the people we love the most. When you doubt your tomorrows think of how the people you love would feel if you weren't in their lives tomorrow. I can assure you that many people are looking forward to their tomorrows with you!!!!! You are never alone and you are always loved. Your husband might not understand but it doesn't mean that he doesn't care. Besides, do you understand everything about your husband? ;) ;) ;)

I know exactly how you feel. Some days I feel like I'm just going through the motions to get through another day just so I can do it again tomorrow. There's a country song and I'm not sure what it's called but it's about a guy that kills himself and the singer says, "how do you get so lonely, how does it get so bad...." The first time I heard that song was on a Saturday morning when the house was still asleep and I caught the video while flipping through the channels. I couldn't stop crying because I knew exactly how that kid felt that killed himself and I cried because I knew that I didn't have that option because I couldn't do that to my kids. When I was a teenager, I had a friend that killed himself and on my bad days, I think about him a lot and I wonder if that's how he was feeling when he did it. It scares me to think about suicide because it terrifies me to think that I could come to the same point he did. Some days I find myself straining with every fiber of my being to find some reason to keep going. My boys are my reason. Find a reason to keep going and remind yourself of it when you are feeling lost. Make yourself your reason. You are worth it!! I wish I could sit there with you and give you a hug! All too well I know how you are feeling today! Please don't give up - you never know what the future will hold. On my good days, I think of my friend that gave up and I think, if he had only held on for another week or another month things may have gotten better. He missed out on so much by giving up. Life is in a constant state of motion and change. Please remember that there is always hope as long as you keep trying! I promise that one day will be better. I also promise that you are not alone!! I know you feel lonely and feel like there's no point, and I know it's hard to believe, but keep trying - it will get better. Whether it takes days, weeks, months or years, one day we will all look back on this and say, wow, I can't believe I made it through that. You are stronger than you feel!! The fact that you get up and face this every day is proof of that! Superman is not brave. It's impossible to be brave when you know you can't get hurt. People like you are brave because you know that there is so much pain out there but yo

I feel like giving up....I have nothing left in me anymore....despite all the 'good' I have -- just so tired...

Do you ever feel so alone? I feel like with my anxiety and panic attacks I have become so lonely, alone...Not very many people actually understand what it feels like to live in this constant fear -- where your thoughts are really not yours, but scares you so much...and any criticism just brings me down completely...I have become a lot more dependent on my medication, which is not good...for a while I was doing okay...I was taking Clonazepam only once, but for the first time today I took two of them... I just feel so alone, even though my husband is here....he doesn;t understand what is going on and doesn't want to understand....I have asked him numerous times times to learn about anxiety and panic attacks, but he has not taken any initiatives... We are both post-grad students so the workload is crazy between the two of us -- but it is me who does everything...I have to cook, clean...and my needs always come second...I am so tired...I feel that the more I do the more I am criticized -- and this brings me down completely....my confidence has just been shattered...and I am not sure what to do anymore...I cannot even look forward to tomorrow...I just feel so inadequate...not sure of myself and am tired of telling my husband how I feel.... I am just so tired... :(